Possibly Giving Up

I can't take it anymore. I try and try, but nothing I do ever turns out good. I can't make my original characters and I can't even do fan drawings completely freehand. I fail at human anatomy, placing features, adding details, or even drawing the basic elements of things. I can draw the shapes and imagine them, but I can't do anything after that that makes up what the object is supposed to be.

I'm crying right now over my failure. I feel like such an idiot. I was inspired to start drawing and was slightly driven by love, but now I see that it was just me blindly walking in the dark. I feel like I have no support and I feel like even if I do good stuff no one will notice it. I'm really considering giving up drawing and possibly writing. It just seems like wasted time.

Quit being stupid. You aren't supposed to do it so that someone will notice, you're doing it to express yourself. IF you feel like all you can do right now is scribble. Draw as horribly as you want just to let out all your emotions. It doesn't have to be great. It doesn't even have to be good! It's your art Alan...YOUR art. YOUR Characters. It's natural to feel in a rut, but you'll lose my respect if you just up and quit. Ask Chii, my art isn't your normal Anime style...and I'll be the first to say she's far better than I am! But I don't show her so I can get a "Oooohhh!" I show her because I want her to see how I feel. I once drew an Angel not because I wanted to show off the detail I put in its wings, but because it reminded me of someone I once knew. When I drew a picture of my RP character getting caught stealing panties, I didn't do it just to make people laugh, I did it because he's my character and I love him. Where you're at right now is simply a wall. A wall that you refuse to look at and see just how high it is. Grow a pair Alan. Look at whats stopping you. You're looking for that motivator that will give you some stunning revelation. It's not coming until you LOOK for it. But if all you do is hang your head and stare at your feet, you'll see nothing but the pile of dog crap you're about to step in. Giving up is for pussies. Alan. You are not a pussy.

MK, I'll be honest. I can't hide this anymore. I half write/draw because I want to be recognized. I want people to know who I am, because in this world I hate being a nobody.

I've been looking for my drive for a long time. I looked up to my brother (until he became a heartless douchebag) and always wanted to draw, but felt discouraged by negative feedback (thank that bitch who called herself an art teacher in my Sophomore year) and gave up. Now later I'm driven by a crush I have on someone and wanting acceptance, but it seems that just isn't working too well.

I'll tell you this though. I'm giving it one last shot. I will dedicate the next 2 months to drawing, and if I fail to produce anything of quality, I'm calling it curtains. I only call it quality if it's something someone who doesn't know me will say is good, because I know friends and family will support me no matter what crap I make.

So 2 months starting today, 60 days since it's February.

...God help me...

you are gonna need alot of paper, draw one thing over and over and compare to what you based it off of to see what you got wrong, it may take a few hundred tries and you will get angry, but sooner or later you'll memories the anatomy.

Look at hentai, it will help you with anatomy in the anime-category. For more realistic, look at porn. Stare at their naked bodies and see just what is underneath those clothes. Stare at how they move, imagine the bones and the angle.

If you want to give up, that's up to you. No one is stopping you, just as no one is making you draw. You don't have to draw to be accepted. Drawing is a style, if you don't fit in it, find something more suitable to your taste.

Honestly, not a lot of people can draw well. You just might be one of those people... but I, for one, is tired of this bullshit. If you want to quit, just fucking quit already. If you don't want to quit, then shut your bitching and start drawing some more.

You made that necklace right? It looks good, make more. If you want attention, go on Gaia. Get into a good giveaway thread and whore yourself. I didn't quite whore myself, but I got quite a few gifts from sticking around.... erm, anyways, go chat on Gaia, there are PLENTY of people there!

That is all.

Asakura wrote:

Look at hentai, it will help you with anatomy in the anime-category. For more realistic, look at porn. Stare at their naked bodies and see just what is underneath those clothes. Stare at how they move, imagine the bones and the angle.

This is the best suggestion anybody in this section has made.

Sorry for being all emo yesterday. Just shouldn't have tried drawing when I was in a bad mood.

...and no, I DON'T expect you guys to apologize. Why does everyone assume that I want them to apologize too when I apologize?

Because you don't just say I'm sorry... you add in a bunch of "guilt-trip" comments that makes some people think they should apologize. Lol, ironically enough, the ones who did any comment does not apologize unless they were in the wrong and they must acknowledge it.

Lmao, but I'm very serious... hentai/doujin has some of the best shits I've seen. Fapping off also can release some stress, a win-win the way I see it. ^_^

Well this time I'm not adding those "comments", so yeah.

Fapping off meaning what? When I'm pissed I express it and usually people get pissed at me.

Fapping = jackin' off = squeezing one off =

Urban Dictionary wrote:

... bashing the candle, Bleeding the weasel, bleedin the weed, buffing the banana, bopping the baloney, burping the worm, choking the chicken, cleaning your rifle, corking the bat, cranking the shank, cuffing the carrot, fisting your mister, flogging your dog, floggin the frog, flogging the hog, flogging the log, flute solo, jerkin'the gherkin, looping the mule, manual override, painting the pickle, pocket pinball, pocket pool, polishing the banister, polishing the rocket, pounding your flounder, pumping the python, roping the pony, spanking the monkey, teasing the weasel, tossing the turkey, walking the dog, whipping the willy, wonking your cronker, yanking the crank.

= masturbate.


Also, just because you're pissed does not mean the other person can't be pissed. When someone attacks you, won't you attack back? You, personally, may not, but most people take that chance to release the built up stress. Or, it may have rubbed them the wrong way, and thus, getting pissed. There's a lot of reasons, you shouldn't take it personally in most cases.

I know people can be pissed when I'm pissed. Just...sorry.

Damn...

...and I don't jerk off to release stress. Whose idea was that O___o

[Feeling better because he practiced acrobatic stuff]

Oh good god I lolled at Asakuras comment. I must say tho, the porn thingie is a pretty good suggestion XD

But I must say, to you, my good, good friend, never, ever give up. Never, as in NEVER FUCKING EVER. You, good sir, are a wonderful story maker, and well the reason you aint drawing so good is because of the lack of experience! Why do you think I'm so good at drawing? It's because I have been drawing, everyday I have been drawing, ever since I understood what pencils, pens and paper are. You ain't ever gonna go better unless you pratrice! Afterall, for me, to get as good as I am now, it took me 13 years!


Also fap, seriously, fap, fappin's gud.

Alucard009 wrote:

...and I don't jerk off to release stress.

He admits that he does it tho'

lol

"Playing a solo on the Devil's clarinet" ...

Anyways, you've gotta be more positive. I only have one emo hat to designate to people, and I gave it to Cam >.>

Karasu wrote:

Alucard009 wrote:

...and I don't jerk off to release stress.

He admits that he does it tho'

lol

lol'd

Kebin wrote:

Asakura wrote:

Look at hentai, it will help you with anatomy in the anime-category. For more realistic, look at porn. Stare at their naked bodies and see just what is underneath those clothes. Stare at how they move, imagine the bones and the angle.

This is the best suggestion anybody in this section has made.

Sadly, both of you speak the utmost truth here.